The Smell of Failure....

You know that moment? The moment when you are so sure of yourself you start to let yourself slip? I think I'm at that moment.
So close to the 10KG mark, but yet so far...

This last week I have been so scared to say it... I have been screwing up. Big Time.

How did it start? Me getting sick. How did it continue? Excuses (of course).

When I get sick, I nearly always stop eating correctly. I stop having regular meals (sometimes not  eating at all). Knowing this, when I got better I knew I was going to be hungry. And boy, was I HUNGRY! I ate... and ate... and ate... Okay so thats not totally true. I did, however, eat more then i should of - and not the good kind.

I have had chinese... probably 4 times in the last 2 weeks? I have been inconsistant with my exercise since getting better. I have been eating late at night. And, my most horrible confession of all - I had a pretty big binge... on chocolate of all things!

Don't get me wrong - I didn't totally stop with my diet... I have still been on Herbalife, and most of my meals ( apart from the Chinese) have been pretty healthy.

But honestly? I screwed up... and why its taken me so long to admit it? Excuses and embarrassment. Being so close to that 10Kg mark, that I aloud myself to slip up made me upset and embarraessed.

I am now back - moving forward from this point on! When I have my next weigh-in at the nutrition club it will be interesting to see if I have put any weight back on... however the weigh- in is not until this Thursday so hopefully I can prevent my screw up from being reflected on the scales.

Either way I have now admitted to you the truth - I messed up..

Fact is... I am human... and make mistakes. So as I have my Herbalife dinner and write to you now I want you to know - I am starting from the beginning (mantra and all). No junk - 30 days, Break the habit... Remember?

Thanks for all your support - I will keep you posted! Till next time...
SammiD